Heeeeyyy Reader, Welcome back
here right on blogspot.com. it’s has been a lovely weekend as in I have been
sleeeeeeping all through that my eyes got swollen. I swear if any man sees me
now, he will run and not look back. I even saw my face on the mirror and I shoulded Jesuuuuuus. Anyway, on another note, It feels good to know that we are in
December, the last month in 2014. Sorry I didn’t not wish happy new month is
not my style though, but you will have a happy ending month of the year, say
AMEN to this. My birthday is coming up soon and am getting old. Have you been
reading my tweets so far? Do follow me on twitter @chatwitholy. Do you want us to
discuss something personal and private? Email me as well on
chatwitholy@gmail.com.
Did you read my letter to the relationship adviser the other day?
Please before you read what you are about to read now, click Here
to read on my letter to Relationship Adviser, this will help you understand
what am ranting about.
Well when I get frustrated at
dreaming of love through tele-novella, I hate on other women, who has loving
husbands around them. I hate them so much for having what I don’t have. Hence,
I use my job to feel good about myself. In my head I would say “she has a fine
man and beautiful kids, but that does make her eat and drive my kind of car or
live in my kind of mansion. I am more successful”.
The truth, when I run away from
craving for a devoted and trustworthy man I speedily come up with this strategy
that helps me deal with the fact that in my heart I truly desire to surrender
to a trustworthy man. These strategies usually work sometimes. Although my
problem with surrounding to my truest nature and desire of heart is that, other
women will have to judge me for being myself and more so, I will get hurt as in
heartbreak.
I have learnt to live in fake and
lies just to keep myself where I am. Perhaps to be seen as unemotional queen.
But inside, I am not. I rage, I hurt, I crave to surrender to a man. I have
deeper love to offer almost to anyone but I struggle to show it.
So I turn to my substitute and
speak for my other women in this category. We substitute for love, which is primarily
who we are even though how we love it might differ.
Sincerely, love is very difficult
for me and that is why I have to “have” something. I have to be successful. I
have to be rich. I have to be worthy or something.
Listen or just check out these women
who deny that they want any
relationship. Watch the way their denial comes out in it’s self. Very
defensive. Am I right or wrong? That’s the way we exist…
The thing is, the men who
surrender and devote their hearts to us are the ones who are ready to meet our
craving hearts. The long and short of my rant here is Trustworthy Men are not looking
for the following…
Tiny Waist
Big Hips
Breast Implants
Heavy Make-ups
Well groomed Brazilian Hair
Long legs
Designer dress or bikinis.
Is just the craving and open
heart lady.
To be Continuned…
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